Showing posts with label beauty. Show all posts
Showing posts with label beauty. Show all posts
what is beauty
webster's define beauty as: quality that is pleasing to the eye
growing up i was always called beautiful and pretty from family members and some peers. but its when i entered around junior high the perception of beauty that was then introduced to me changed. i went from little girl beautiful (maybe because of innocence) to the dark skin, not so skinny girl. i was referred to as a big girl in school. i will tell you right now im not a size 4, 8, hell im not even a 12. but i am me. it was hard from junior high through almost all of high school. i hated myself. but i never showed that to the world. everyone though that i was so confident and had no care in the world. even today sometimes i have my bad days like we all do where i just wake up in the morning and im not feeling myself, but i will be damned if i portray that to the world. i do my hair, put on my makeup, get dressed to kill like i would do any other day, and when i open my front door i put a smile on my face. but anyway back to what i was saying growing up i wasnt one of the pretty girls it wasnt because i was ugly in the face (cause Lord knows im gorgeous..lol) but it was because i was dark skin and i was fat (kids can be mean) i used to beat myself up. it got so bad that at one point my last year in junior high till about my second year in high school i will binge. i will eat and then throw my food back up. it was my escape and it was just what i needed. i get the taste of the food and satisfaction of eating it without absorbing all of the calories. but at that age what i failed to realize is that despite what some may think beauty is what i choose to define it to be. beauty is fluent not solid. what may be horrific to one may be the most gorgeous thing to the next. what i also failed to realize is that all that time i was telling myself that i did not want to be like some of my aunts, cousins, and family members. i didnt want to be diabetic like my great grand mother or big as hell like my aunt, and although i tried my hardest to stay away from that spectrum and be the opposite of my family, we do share the same DNA. genetics play a huge role in weight no matter what some ignorant people might try to tell you. i played basketball, volleyball, etc., worked out, didnt eat some days and i still never went under a size ten (in high school) i am who i am and i just had to accept that. what i also didnt know is that the entire time i had a thyroid disorder. it wasnt until my freshman year in college that my doctors decided to run some test and realized that i am hypothyriotic. what this means is my body is slow, hair dont grow, skin dry, metabolism slow, nails brittle because the hormones in my body is not being produced the way that they should.
but anyway back to what i was saying. i had to learn to love myself because at the end of the day no one in this world has to wake up with me everyday but me. only i have to live with the decisions i make and the way that i look. it took me along time to love and accept myself. i didnt love myself for a long time. it wasnt until i moved to georgia my senior year in high school where i completely accepted myself for what i am and what i will be. now today i love myself you cant tell me s*it. beauty is in the eye of the beholder. beauty is what you make it. when i was younger it was like crazy to be big. like it just wasnt the "thing" to be. now i love myself and apparently some (not all) people love my body type and some (not all) females will like a shape like mine.. ass for days, hips like damn, and a smile that stretches for miles. my butt, hips, tummy, love handles, they all used to be my enemy. now they are my companion. when its cold outside it keeps me warm, and when its warm outside they give me a little umpph in my wardrobe. to love yourself takes alot of work, alot of self acceptance, alot of being real with yourself and honest. i had to be honest with myself, i will never be a 2,4,6 hell i may not even be a 8. but i am me and thats all that matters. as long as i am comfortable and HEALTHY then i will never complain. weight is the least of anyones issues i wake up in the morning and thank God everyday i have two legs, hands, feet, arms, ears, eyes, a nose, and a mouth.. most of all i have my sanity. i am in good working condition i have nothing to complain about.
my definition of beauty is:ME
"BEAUTY COMES AS MUCH FROM THE MIND AS FROM THE EYE"- GREY LIVINGSTON
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five things i loveeee
i asked a couple of my friends to list five things about themselves and their bodies that they love.... i participated as well.
five things that i love about myself and my body are:
1. my smile
2. butt
3. spirit and determination
4. breast
5. my entire being
natalia says:
1. smile
2. personality
3. determination
4. hips
5. legs
chaena says:
1. my honesty
2. my wit
3. ambition
4. legs
5. my smile
marcuse says:
1. smile
2. hips
3. lips
4. personality
5. nose
what are five things that you love about yourself??
makeup= my guilty pleasure
my face lives in this case...lol
so i finally ordered my eyeshadow palette that i have been wanting for almost a year.. i decided to pay the extra money (or so i though) and just get a good professional one from here in the U.S instead of buying one on ebay that comes from across seas and might not be everything i wanted or it may be ruined... for the palette and shipping it only came up to 26 dollars and some change.. i dont think that is bad compared too how much money i easily spend on dumb things.. i must say im in love with it. it felt like christmas in feb to open up my gift to myself.all the colors were packed tight and are super duper vibrant, .ive tested some colors onmy hands but once i really use it i will post pics... but here is the world premiere of my baby. what do you think i should name her?
makeup= my guilty pleasure (part 2)
THIS LITTLE EYESHADOW CAME WITH MY 88 PALETTE..ITS VERY PRETTY (BAD PIC) SMALL BECAUSE ITS A SAMPLE.. ITS PURPLE WITH A LITTLE SHIMMER
ONE OF THE COMPARTMENTS IN MY MAKEUP CASE WHERE I KEEP MY LIPGLOSS AND SOME MASCARAS AND EYELINERS..
OK SO THESE ARE NOT THAT PRICEY TOO ME BUT SOME MAY THINK THEY ARE TO EXPENSIVE, BUT I BOUGHT ALL THESE LIPGLOSS(ES) FROM VICTORIA SECRETS. THEY ARE 5 FOR $20 AND TO ME WORTH EVERY CENT. MY FAVORITE ONES ARE THE PURPLE AND LIGHT PINK. THE YELLOW ONE IS PRETTY GOOD TOO
SOMETIMES INSTEAD OF WEARING MY BARE MINERALS FOUNDATION I MIGHT JUST WEAR MY LIQUID MAKEUP AND THE TWO THAT HAS WORKED BEST FOR ME IS MARY KAY (WHITE TUBE) AND MAYBELLINE AGE REWIND.. NOW I KNOW IM NOT AN OLD PERSONS SO YOU ARE LIKE WHY ARE YOU USING AGE REWIND?! WELL BECAUSE IT HAS A BUILT IN MOSTUIRIZER AND ITS FIRMS THE SKIN IN THE PROCESS. I WEAR THE MARK KAY WHEN I WANT COMPLETELY FULL COVERAGE, AND THE MAYBELLINE I USE WHEN I WANT BETTER THAN BARE MINERALS COVERAGE BUT I DONT WANT TO LOOK ALL DOLLED UP.
THIS BODY SHIMMER IS PRETTY GOOD.. ALOT COMES IN THE BOTTLE AND IT ADDS A CERTAIN RADIANCE/GLOW TO THE SKIN WHEN USED PROPERLY
I BOUGHT THIS NAIL POLISH BECAUSE EVERYBODY BE WALKING AROUND WITH STUDS AND STUFF LIKE THAT ON THEIR FINGERNAILS.. I DONT HAVE TIME FOR ALL THAT SO I THOUGHT THIS WOULD BE THE QUICK ALTERNATIVE. I WAS RIGHT. IT ONLY COST $1 AND IT WORKS GREAT.
ALL THE MASCARA WAS ON SALE AT KMART FOR 3.99-5.99 BECAUSE MAX FACTOR WILL NO LONGER BE SELLING IN THE US AFTER THIS MONTH.. AND ON TOP OF THAT THEY INCLUDED 3 DOLLAR OFF COUPON FOR ALL COVERGIRL PRODUCTS
ALL WAS A DOLLAR MINUS THE EYELINER (SILVER WITH BLACK CAP)THATS NEXT TO THE LIP GLOSS.. THE EYESHADOWS THAT HAVE THE COLOR ENDS WORK WONDERS.. GLIDES ON SMOOTH AND LAST ALL DAY. ITS CALLED KLEANCOLOR RETRACTABLE WATERPROOF EYELINER. THEY HAVE ALOT MORE COLORS TO CHOOSE FROM. THE BLACK EYELINER IS FROM WET 'N' WILD AND I HAVE BEEN USING THIS BRAND FOR ABOUT TWO YEARS NOW.. I AM SOO IN LOVE WITH IT. THE PINK BRUSH ONLIP GLOSS IS FROM NYX AND IT WAS 1.99. IT HAS A BRUSH AND IT LOOKS BEAUTIFUL ON THE LIPS
THESE TWO EYESHADOW PIGMENTS ON THE LEFT ARE FROM NYX. THEY ARE 1.99 AND THE TWO SMALLERS ONES ON THE RIGHT ARE SAMPLES FROM SOME EYESHADO THAT I HAD BOUGHT. I HAVENT TRIED THEM OUT YET BUT WHEN TESTED ON MY HAND THEY WERE SO VIBRANT (PURPLE AND RED)
THIS MAKEUP STICK WAS 5O CENT. I BOUGHT IT IN BABY PINK. I HAVE BEEN USING IT AS A BASE FOR MY EYESHADOW AND ITS ACTUALLY REALLY GOOD. I DIDNT NEED IT JUST BOUGHT IT CAUSE IT WAS ON SALE BUT I LIKE IT. IT GLIDES ON SMOOTH AND DOESNT WEAR OFF. ITS FROM WILD BEAUTY
THIS IS ALL THE NEW THINGS I BOUGHT MINUS THE FOUNDATION..
Read more...my lovely lady lumps
lol ok so i was over at the makings of me by the lovely daja and she did a post about ass and boobs.. so i decided to do the same.....
hmmmm as far as me backside is concerned i will consider myself bumper but my friends are over here telling me "im a lie" and that im a badonkadonk.. so its 4 against 1 so i will say badonkadonk...
as far as my lumps up top... i will consider myself watermelons... i mean i dont see myself as anything else on this chart..lol..sorry.. truth is my tattas are really not that big they just look huge as hell in clothing.. im only a 38 C... depending on the brand i can wear a D but most of all my bras are C's.. got them C/D's on deck...lmaooo
so everyone do you all think i accurately rated myself and if not what would you put down.. and ladies what do you rank yourselves let me know...
sidenote: i was really in my room checking myself out in the mirror...shame shame shame lol
Read more...PLASTIC SURGERY
hey do anyone know any good plastic surgeons in the atlanta area. i have been thinking about this for a while (more like 5 yrs) lol i know i am too young to be thinking about it. but it is something i need more than want. and so i think it is time to get this done but i dont want to regret it and i dont want someone to chop me up, so if you know any good surgeons or if you know anyone who has had plastic surgery and have reference to shoot my way it will be greatly appreciated
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